I guess 8 months ago I would have just ragged endlessly on a person that was willing to take the time out to do this. I began to read my friends and became a little more interested because I can just go on and on. I might even be able to shock some people with the views I truly have on all things. I have thought about where to start and I guess it was simple. I will start on 9/23/08, this is probably the day of my life that I will never forget. That was the day I got to see something that I did right in my life. In my eyes I made perfection. My daughter was born and I no longer cared about anything in the world. I accepted the fact right away that this was going to consume the rest of my life. Now if anyone really knows me I usually only care about what I want or what I need. I knew when I finally looked into her eyes that there was no longer a place for me, it was going to be all about her. We named her Ryann Susan Zydor, I had to fight hard for the last name guys. I know people now look at me and say holy shit that asshole is a father. Sometimes I truly can not believe it either. I wonder every day if I am going to be able to do all that she needs and then I realize that I just will not do for myself anymore and then she will have it all. I want her to have everything that I never had. And let me tell you I had two parents that worked there asses off to make sure that I had it all. I want to do the same for her, and I want her to look at me every day and know that I am working my hardest for her. I will make sure that I give her all the opportunities in the world to have whatever she truly wants. I will never hold her back from attacking any goal she has. I want her to be strong unlike I was. If she wants it or needs it I want her to go and get it. I hear all the jokes about remember the way you treated girls and now that is going to come back to bite me in the ass. I will never let anything happen to her like that. She will be prepared to handle all of life’s challenges. She is my baby girl, she will always be my baby girl.
I really believe that I am going to stay on top of this just so one day I can go back and read all that I had to say. You are going to hear a lot from me and I want you all to understand that I mean most of what I say. If I offend anybody just know that I probably mean it. Scary Thought, Joey says it and means it. Movies, Music, Sports, Stories about my daughter will all be covered in here. I hope you enjoy.
